Thoughts of today

Well, I can't say that this day is somehow different to others that I'm facing all the time, but probably today I was thinking a lot and this thoughts were really different if I will simply add all of them.
First of all this Saturday I will have my TOEFL exam and I think that after it I will be very happy, that finally this shit is not on my shoulders :))) And I will go and drinik beer, problem is that I don't know with whom I will do it, because all my friends are out of city on the conference - Open Up where I was supposed to be a faci, but because nice person Inna Barysh and her mistake in lists of people for TOEFL I will not be there. Ok, what can I do with that. I can't change this reality.
In the morning I realized that next Summer my good firend will get married. I was really surprised. The most surprising for me was probably thought that Lena and I, we were the same in our attitude to marrige. We were all the thinking that our career is the most important, that were are still young and whole life is in front of us, that we can drink till we are dad and that we can sleep with everyone we like, or at least something like that :))) As a result, friend that was sharing the same views according life will marry next Summer. Than I also realized that Lena will finish University, she will get Master degree, she has good job, he has beloved person, so why not to get married? She has everything we were striving for in school. And than I compared her with me and I understood that my plans can't be stoped with marrige. I still have what to do next three years and I can't interrupt it. That's why I wish good luck for Lena and also for myself :)))
Another clever thought that came to me is that in a month I will go for internship far-far away from my native home to very unknown country and I will have to addopt to smth new and unknown. I know that I will survive everywhere, the only thing that I'm a bit afraid. I know that I'm strong enough to overcome all difficulties and I will do that.
Today I got angry with Nastya. First of all she didn't tell me that she applied for being a faci on New Horizons and the worst thing is that she was selected. I know that she will be mentally with me, when I will be in the train to go to Kiev, but she will not give me a hug near it. That is smth that I was expecting from her, and I will not experience that. All my LC also will be out there. I know that I will cry and noone of them will be near me at that moment.
Do not consider that I don't want to go for internship I'm just a bit afraid.