вторник, 31 марта 2009 г.

A Farewell Letter

If for an instant God were to forget that I am rag doll and gifted me with a piece of life,
possibly I wouldn't say all that I think,
but rather I would think of all that I say.
I would value things,
not for their worth but for what they mean.
I would sleep little, dream more,
understanding that for each minute we close our eyes we lose sixty seconds of light.
I would walk when others hold back.
I would wake when others sleep.
I would listen when others talk,
and how I would enjoy a good chocolate ice cream!
If God were to give me a piece of life,
I would dress simply,
throw myself face first into the sun,
baring not only my body but also my soul.
My God, if I had a heart, I would write my hate on ice,
and wait for the sun to show.
Over the stars I would paint with a Van Gogh dream a Benedetti poem,
and a Serrat song would be the serenade I'd offer to the moon.
With my tears I would water roses,
to feel the pain of their thorns,
and the red kiss of their petals.

My God, if I had a piece of life...
I wouldn't let a single day pass without telling the people I love that I love them.
I would convince each woman and each man that they are my favorites,
and I would live in love with love.
I would show men how very wrong they are to think that they cease to be in love when they grow old,
not knowing that they grow old when they cease to love!
To a child I shall give wings,
but I shall let him learn to fly on his own.
I would teach the old that death does not come with old age,
but with forgetting.
So much have I learned from you, oh men...

I have learned that everyone wants to live on the peak of the mountain,
without knowing that real happiness is in how it is scaled.
I have learned that when a newborn child squeezes for the first time with his tiny fist his father's finger,
he has him trapped forever.
I have learned that a man has the right to look down on another only when he has to help the other get to his feet.
From you I have learned so many things,
but in truth they won't be of much use,
for when I keep them within this suitcase,
unhappily shall I be dying.

~GABRIEL GARCIA MARQUEZ~

понедельник, 30 марта 2009 г.

Rishikesh trip

OMG!!!!! That was something!!! This trip was really different to all other trips that we had here in India. Being myself, meaning being a lot into details I will tell story about Rishikesh from very beginning, it means from preparation and organization of this trip :)
I never ever seen such a stressful planning. We were changing our plans every 15 minutes. People who were there tried to convince others, that there is nothing to see in Rishikesh, there is no possibility to do rafting, when it is raining and other crap. After participating in two on-line talks of such a character I understood - that's it! I'm going in any case and I will not pay attention to anyone. One phone call to Franka and we are already going together. So, it means that I will never be alone, when I have my best friend in India near me :) Than we had a few hours debates about how, when , why, with whom we are going with other lovely interns and just random people in our house. Finally, Natasha (intern from Russia and my good friend) made an arrangement with her boss friend that he will go with us and he will help us in everything, especially in transportation - we went to Rishikesh by his car :))) I simply love to be a white girl in India :)))

Trip to Rishikesh was quite interesting. It took us 8 hours instead of 4 that were promised. But who cares? It is called Indian stretchable time. No one is paying attention to stick to their words :(( Unfortunately. All the way David (guy from France, who was intern than employee in India, than was fired and now he is going to China, to find some work/internship there, very interesting personality, by the way :))) ) I think that I will always have associations about him - "Magical moments", Party in French style, products from Manali and lot's of funny jokes. This guy knows how to make people laugh :)))

So, we came to Rishikesh at 1.30 am. Found the hotel for 400 Rs. per room. David was shocked, me as well :((( To pay such a price for such a shit????!!!!????? Never ever I will stay in such a room for such a price. Giving you my word. As a result we decided not to bother ourselves with such a small problems as cockroaches on the floor in the room and in the bathroom, lizards on the wall and great party on the ground floor. Defiantly, who will pay attention to sooooo small inconveniences when whole week you are sleeping less than 6 hours per day, it is already 3 am and tomorrow you are planning to have 4 hours rafting in Ganga river? Yeh, I also think so :)) So, we covered dirty pillows with our pullovers and felt asleep :)))
Morning in Rishikesh started with phone call at 8 am. I wanted to kill that person, than some machines started to work in the yeard and than Natasha called and said that in 15 minutes we will have to leave! OMG. I love my life, my India, my experience here! Guys!!!!!!!! Give me half an hour more to sleeppppp!!!!!!! No way, we need to go!
Early wake up was just a part of nice morning. It started to rain in Rishikesh. Weather was "veeeeeerrrryyyyy good" for rafting. But we decided that we will do that in any case, because we travelled so far, with so many difficulties. Now, it is our responsibility to do that. So, we booked rafting, went for breakfast and finally started our way to the place on river where our adventure will start. As way there took some time, Franka and I started to remind ourselves about all adventures that we had in India with her. OMG, I didn't laugh that much for whole week totally. You know, people, I realised at that moment how many things I already experienced here, how many people I met here, how many countries I have invitation now to come :))) It was great to remind all of that :)))) Thank you Franka, for being all the time with me :)) I love you, my darling! You will always be in my heart, in my memories, in my life. You are always welcomed in every country that I will be living, staying, chilling in :) I know that we will meet in Ukraine and also I know that you will come to USA to meet me. As well I know that WE WILL visit India again, but this time for sightseeing! Pakka, my darling :))))

So, cool, our boat was ready, life-saving jackets are put on, hamlets are on the heads, instruction are understood. Chalo, lets go, friends!
First feelings: "And that's it? We want actions!!!" After first active moment: "Cool, we want more!!!!!!!!!" And we got more!!!!!!!! Guys, rafting is something great! I recommend it to everyone! You need to do it at least once in your life :) Because this rafting resort is oriented for tourist mainly not for sports men, we had a lot of fun, swimming in Ganga and just time for chatting and jokes :)) Thank's David for throwing me to Ganga, without you I will never do that! And now I have this experience. And I'm happy !!!! As well, Ganga as sooo clean in Rishikesh. I remember it in Allahabad. That was damn crap! I would not even think of swimming in that river, but in Rishikesh - why not? It was great :)))
As well, once again I'm impressed by Himalayas nature. It is simply fantastic. When you are passing through places that are completely virgin and on other side you see tourist camp and just polluted Indian villages :) It is very different and very diverse country. I can't stop being amazed by it!
My rafting experience was so cool because of people with whom I was there: Natasha, David, Rajishwar and for sure Franka!
After stopping we went to change to some dry clothes and lunch :)) We went to the restaurant in one hotel and I was shocked to see so many foreigners in one time in one place in India. Obviously, food was prepared as for foreigners, not for Indians, meaning that it was not that spicy :)
After great lunch we decided to go around Rishikesh and finally to go home. You know, guys, at that moment it was hard to take this decision. I will tell you why. When you are sleeping whole week less than 6 hours per day, when you had crazy weekends with lot's of activities, such as rafting, travelling and sightseeing and you still know that tomorrow work is starting. It means that at least at 9.30 am you need to be in the office. As well you need to do something there, most preferably, something useful :))) And you know that trip home will take 6-7 hours. So, it means that you have big chances to come home at 2-3 am. Logically, you will have same 6 hours to recover from trip and to go for work.
On the other hand - you have possibility to see Rishikesh, you have possibility to go to unknown temples, you have possibility to buy some cheap souvenirs for your friends and for yourself and generally you have a possibility to do something different from daily routine!
I think you already guessed what we did :)) Obviously, we stayed :)) And we enjoyed. It was great. Rishikesh is great small city, with lot's of crazy people that are thinking that they are saint or at least something like that. There are lot's of nice temples, there are lot's of shops with cool Indian clothes, but prices are a bit higher than in Amritsar for example, because there are too many stupid tourists that are paying high price for that products!
I was blessed by some strange guy from Hindu temple. Now, I have holy ribbon on my wrist and red spot on my forehead :)) Funny :)
Souvenirs were bought, city seen and we went back home :))

I don't know why, but trip home wasn't that long as trip to Rishikesh. Maybe our driver stopped being lost ??? :)))) Who knows? But as a result at 1.30 am we were at home:))) Finally, my bed, my pillow, my room.

Thank's once again to everyone, who made this trip so great!!!! It was great experience, great views, great emotions and feelings!
Love you :)))

четверг, 26 марта 2009 г.

Interns of AIESEC in Chandigarh - I love you sooooo much!!!!

Yesterday, I had very strange day. I had too many thoughts in my mind. About life, home, friends that are here and friends that are there. O was thinking about my personal growth and my professional career. As you can see to wide sphere of interests :))
So, as a result I was a bit sad and even had homesickness attacks. I put this status in gtalk. In 15 minutes 3 persons wrote me smth nice. How they love me, how they appreciate my work here. I'm very thankful to this people.
After my work I decided to call Tushar and ask where are they, because I wanted to go to AIESEC office to work there. They were chilling at Sukhna lake. So, I came to all of them. It was a bit fun, a bit not interesting, because people around me, I mean AIESECers are all the time speaking in Hindi and I can't understand anything. So, every time when I'm with them or I need to listen very carefully and than I can get main point by noting there mimics, intonations and just moves or I can ignore that and start observing people as I'm usually doing.
Than we finally went to office, where I had great plans to work. And you know what? They were screwed up. Because working computer is transported to my home, but there is no internet at my home. There is Internet in the office, but there are no working computers :)) As usually. Ok, another purpose of me coming to office was to take bicycle that one of our LC members was supposed to bring me on Monday. Guess what? It wasn't there :) Indian style. Ok, I already got used to it. No problem.
So, what I decided to do? Obviously, I called interns that are living at the same house where AIESEC office is. There were not that much of them, but still.

And I had the most cosiest, the most feeling like at home with friends evening. When people are caring about each other. When people are sharing the same thoughts and not judging each other for the way they look, the way they speak and pronounce words in English. This 3 incredible personalities were showing there culture without domination, but with sharing equal ideas and points. They were telling about their life and especially experience in India as a fairy tale in speaking but not always fairy tail in the reality. I want to say great thank's for Dina, Pusi and Matews. I'm sorry, if spelling of your names are different, please correct me. I'm so happy that I came to their place.
After chilling in 37 house we all went to Score for party. As usually we didn't pay anything - girls night :))) And it was so great to hang out with all interns together. Even those that are not party people went with us. So, now I want to say thank's to all of you that my night in Score so cool: Leena, Rachna, Al, Natasha, David, Dina, Pusi, Matews, Tavu, Gwen.
Thank's for all crazy dances, thank's for all talks that we had, especially it goes to my new friends from Egypt - Dina and Pusi. Guys, I will come to Egypt. Just don't know when :)) Thank's for great auto-riksha experience.
How all of us were fitting to one auto. How that riksha-driver was too high to drive and than fuel finished and we couldn't go anywhere else :)) How Rachna was trying to negotiate about lower price. And once again fitting to one auto. It was crazy.It was great. All this memories will always be with me, in my heart!

I just hope that this is not last time when we are chilling like this. All together. In the same rhythm.

среда, 25 марта 2009 г.

Mix in my head




I have such a mess right now in my head. It is combination of feelings, emotions, thoughts, experiences, parallels, perpendiculars, desires, wishes, paradigms, stereotypes and many other things that I don't know even words that are disribing them.
At this very moment I have so many roles in my life, so many masks that need to be put. Even people around the world are fighting with this statement I still consider it to be truthful. We are really different at work and in family circle. We are saying all things openly when we are in team of friends and we silent about them, when we are not so much acquainted with people around us.

The same with me.

I fill myself very comfortable in India, I simply love this country as well I missing Ukraine like hell. I want to stay here longer and I want to go home as soon as possible. Should I consider that controversial mindset?
I want to be alone at the same I need to have company around me not to fall into depression.
I got over motivated with my work. I finally found something that I'm interested to know more about. I was working on it like mad for 4 working days. And you know what? My manager said that it is not applicable for our company and he really doubts that President will approve it. What da hell? Man, do you know how hard I worked to receive that damn information? I don't know. I'm generally frustrated about Indian working style. I just know that if I will be confident about that exhibition I may convince my President that we need to go there. And I hope that he will also take me there. I would like to see Tashkent.

My friends. My dear friends. Where are you? Why today there are people around me that we so far from me and now they are so close to my heart? As well, why people who shared every breath, every single moment of happiness, sadness, disaster, passion, desire, fun, love just gone, don't have time, don't have desire to be with me. I don't know what is wrong. But I really feel sad about that. At the same time because of that I'm a bit scared to go back to Ukraine. I know that when I will come there everything will change. And I really mean EVERYTHING! My friends will have somehow different life, they will surrounded by new ideas, people, plans. And I will be out of all of that. Out, not knowing what, where, when.

As well, there are several positive moments in my life. First one and the biggest one is positive tendencies in my family. We are on our way for better future and I'm really really happy about that. Let's pray for it staying on the same road!

Also, I'm very happy with my AIESEC involvement. I'm at the right position, in right Local Committee, with right people around me. I know what I need to do. I know what I want to do. I know how I want to do that. As well, I know which legacy I want to leave after myself. This is making me extremely happy. I know that when I will finally leave AIESEC I will fullfill one big dream of mine! I just want to see two and a half months of my work even better than I've experienced before.

So, I have good moments, I have sad moments. All this is called life of an adult. That's why so often I want to go back to my childhood. Without that much responsibilities, when life was so easy and simple. But I know that it is impossible. So, I don't have any other choice as to put a mask of wise, intelligent and mature person and continue my fight :)


вторник, 10 марта 2009 г.

Владимир Высоцкий "Я не люблю"

Я не люблю фатального исхода.
От жизни никогда не устаю.
Я не люблю любое время года,
Когда веселых песен не пою.

Я не люблю открытого цинизма,
В восторженность не верю, и еще,
Когда чужой мои читает письма,
Заглядывая мне через плечо.

Я не люблю, когда наполовину
Или когда прервали разговор.
Я не люблю, когда стреляют в спину,
Я также против выстрелов в упор.

Я ненавижу сплетни в виде версий,
Червей сомненья, почестей иглу,
Или, когда все время против шерсти,
Или, когда железом по стеклу.

Я не люблю уверенности сытой,
Уж лучше пусть откажут тормоза!
Досадно мне, что слово "честь" забыто,
И что в чести наветы за глаза.

Когда я вижу сломанные крылья,
Нет жалости во мне и неспроста -
Я не люблю насилье и бессилье,
Вот только жаль распятого Христа.

Я не люблю себя, когда я трушу,
Досадно мне, когда невинных бьют,
Я не люблю, когда мне лезут в душу,
Тем более, когда в нее плюют.

Я не люблю манежи и арены,
На них мильон меняют по рублю,
Пусть впереди большие перемены,
Я это никогда не полюблю.

1969

пятница, 6 марта 2009 г.

My dearest Executive Body AIESEC in Chandigarh 2009

You know, my dear friends from all over the world, this time has come. Time to write about people that are making my life here, in Chandigarh. And by the way they are making it GREAT!!!!

I know that there are still so many things to find out about this people, as well for some of them I'm like a mystery. Some of them know me from one side, others from another, but there is one common thing for all of us. We are striving to be a team. Not always it is successful, not always it is soooo bad. But we are together. We have one goal, one dream, one desire - TO BE NUMBER ONE LC IN THE AIESEC WORLD IN 2009 .

So, now I want to share what I think, what I know, what I feel towards these 11 bright Individuals!

So, starting from Sahil :)



This person was among few first people who excepted me in EB, not like a foreigner, not like intern, but as a friend, as a team mate. And I'm so thankful for that. Sahil, is the one who can make me think in another, non-standard way. His best phrase about me: Yuliya, there is fun in life even without agenda!
Thank you Sahil, for all our talks in your car, thank's for always dropping me home, thank's for all your valuable advices in AIESEC work, in life, in staying in India, in acting with guys :)))

Gautam



Gautam is a person, who's questions are the most non expectable. My personal life is the most interesting topic for discussion. I remember one moment after GEP event, we had party in AIESEC office. We were standing in the yard, drinking beer, making speaches for people who made this event possible. And I was standing near Gautam, Sahil and TJ. You know, at that moment I had so strong feeling of being one team, having the same views on our goals and having the same desire to achieve them!Thank you for that!
Gautam, is always near by to help. If you ask him for a favour he will be always there. He will come to trainee house to solve some problem even in late night or early morning! Thank's Gauti, for your commitment! Thank's for being so funny and so unpredictable!

Sourabh



Sourabh is the most challenging person to work with. You never know what is going on his head. At this moment he can talk about sessions for GEP event, next moment he is telling me something about his life and than back to the video for the first session that we didn't discuss yet :))
But at the same time, only working with such great individual as Sourabh you can feel passion of the organisation, you can understand how much he is carrying for everything that he is doing. And when he is saying: "Yuliya, don't worry, everything will be alright " I really believe in that, because he is great :)))
My last meeting with Sourabh lasted for 4 hours. We created plan of my work, added new dimensions and completely changed perspectives for a few things. He is motivating me to work more and more! Thank you my dear for that!

Akkriti



At the beginning of my term I even didn't see that girl. She wasn't present at EB announcement, I didn't go for NatCong, so we didn't meet for 1 month or something like that. Our first working meeting was probably during GEP event, where I've seen how she is working with media! Gushhhh, that is something fantastic! She is just crazy about that! And this is amazing! Because you see that this person is passionate about her portfolio, about her work and only in that way we can achieve our goals!

Tushar



Oh, Tushar! It is hard to write about him. First of all this is my colleague in TM area. Second of all he is great team-mate. Tushar organized best recruitment that I ever seen and made great team from guys who were working in recruitment.
He is crapping dirty jokes. He has strange posts in his blog. But still he is somehow special :))

Mansi



First association that I have with this charming lady, that she is sooooo sweet. Her house is next AIESEC office but with better conditions :) She is always there when you need her! Her passion is AIESEC, she even put statuses in Facebook about AIESEC as a lover. Isn't that strange? Yes, it is. But she is not carrying about that, because she sees something more special in that!
Thank you Mansi, for being close to me, thank's for being my company in buying Valentine cards, even it was never presented. Thank you, for your smiles!

Shalika



My first meeting with that girl was through e-mails. She made my coming to India possible, because she was the one, who was sending me all required documents for visa. She was among those first people whom I met at Nik Backers cafe when I landed in Chandigarh. And now we are working in one team. She is always creative in finding new ways of approaching companies, raising TNs, matching more EPs with AIESEC in Chandigarh!

Shivika



I still don't know Shivika that good. But till now I could see that she is very sweet, very nice person that knows what she wants from life.And she is doing that every day. She is planning to raise so much money, that probably we will be reachest LC in India. I just wish that we will realize that in reality, but knowing her potential in ER I don't have any doubts.

TJ



That was the most inspiring speech that I heard when person was selected for EB. This is the most passionate about Finance person. This is the most challenging team-mate for me. Usually it is hard to work with him, usually it is hard even to talk with him. But I know, or at least I hope that till the end of my term we will have good and friendly relations :)

Abhishek



I think that we have lot's of common with this person, even though not always it can be seen. He is funny. He is like teddy bear :))) He likes his department and as well he has his own opinion about every situation but not always he is telling that :))
Now, person that is close to his heart left and I think that he is not feeling very good. Abhishek, if you are supposed to be together, you will be!

And finally, person that made my experience here so intensive and so different from common view of intersnhip, person that selected me for this Executive Body, person that is always managing everything.

And this person is Vikram!



Vikram was the first person with whom I contacted in Chandigarh, he was the first one who was managing my coming to Incredible India. I always know that if I face some difficulties in work, in implementing my plans I can come to him and talk about that and he will always have some constructive solution. He is great manager and leader with great potential. He is leading a team of 12 people and I think that it is already something that LCP can be recognised for! His dream, life, passion, desire and everything that you can ever imagine is AIESEC.
He is obsessed with our goal - To be number one LC in the world and he is making us to believe in the reality of this dream!
Thank you Vikram for all of that!

And all together, all this bright, special, unique, incredible individuals are one team - Executive Body AIESEC in Chandigarh 2009

THE ARCHITECTS

вторник, 3 марта 2009 г.

Подаруй Світло Мені (Present a light for me)

Today I was talking with one of my friends in skype and I understood that she needs to talk with me not only by typing, because I don't have headset, but in life. So, I quickly went out of the office and went trough the field where slum children were running around and begging for money, I went for nearest international phone to call her. Our conversation lasted for 25 minutes. And during this time I felt that I'm doing the right thing. I'M HELPING A PERSON, great individual and simply my friend. After that talk I realised what I'm missing here in India, I'm missing helping people. I don't know how it can be, but I really felt like this.
In Ukraine, every friend of mine knows that in emergency and not only I will come and help. How many of you were coming at late night to my place, because it was nearest or maybe the most convenient place to come, where guests are always welcomed? How many of you came at early morning? When we were meeting or saying last good bye to all interns that we had in LC? Or how many of you came from other cities to stay at my place and enjoy my beloved city, my home town, my Lviv? Probably hundreds! And I enjoyed all of that with you!!!!!

Because this is they way I'm. This is how my normal life is looking like! Because I love to help people, I love guests in my house, I love to show Ukrainian culture to interns. I simply love that!

And here, I miss that. I miss helping my friends, I miss spending time with them.
Even if I would try to help some of my friends here, I can't do that, because I don't know city that good, I don't know how are the things working here to all the details that I know in Ukraine. Probably, here, I need to receive help from someone...

But I want to give something as well...